cheryl (mama’s secretary since before I was even born) came over with her 6 year old daughter. she was so cute but my mom said she was exactly how I was like when I was her age.
she was shy, didn’t speak, and seemed like she had low self confidence cause of the atmosphere around her. and my mom said she was “얄미워” idk how to explain that in english…
said you had to go “enroll” (again) and you already went to “ateneo” 3 times. you left at 1, it’s 7 and now you claim you “never said” that you were going to ateneo but um dipshit look at your sent messages that’s exactly what you told me. it’s been 6 hours, what the fuck. it’s a friday, you hadn’t asked me to go out LOL and it’s cause you’re “enrolling in ateneo” :) as if that takes 6 hours i mean cmon you went there 3 times already :)
i’m so sick of this. i’m so sick of your lies and bullshit. why did i break up with raffee for you. and kerim. and seb. kerim and seb were fucking hot and i broke up with them for you wtf lol. you’re fucking ugly, your eyes are small you have a witch’s nose brown skin weird hair weird body. even though you work out all the time your body looks even worse now. disgusting.
fuck this shit. i’m going to force myself to forget you even if i have to crawl over needles. i’m so sick of feeling like shit for 3 fucking years.
Heart’s dragging me down
But weird thing is. My mind hurts more than my heart, that’s the big downside of being an over-analyzing psycho from a fucked up family right? lol fuck
Only when I don’t care about you do you look for me and “love and miss” me.
You’re so fucking predictable, you’re fucking disgusting.
I don’t know why I’m wasting my time on you! I can’t say anything good about you. You’re ugly as fuck, not even average. You’re skinny, not even with broad shoulders or anything. You’re disgusting, creepy, a horndog, a liar, and to top that all off, USELESS all you do in life is laze around.
fuck i’m so depressed all the time
it started off with how i was raised
grew worse with jim
grew worse when i found out about my dad
grew worse when i started getting beaten up
grew worse when i met you
grew worse when i met you
grew worse when i continued to see you
now i’m way past the line
i’m going to a therapist
but i feel like it won’t help me a lot
i fucking hate you
i fucking FUCKING FUCKING FUCK HATE YOU
